"Walking in the way and the love of the Lord"
By: Mary Maddox
I just spent a year of walking. In 2018, I walked approximately 1000 miles across Europe and Israel. Let's break this down:
In April/May, I walked a portion of the Camino from Samos to Santiago. (10 days)
In May/June, I walked the full Camino from St. Jean to Santiago. (34 days)
In June, I walked the Jesus Trail in Israel. (4 days)
In September, I walked a portion of the Camino from Leon to Santiago. (14 days)
In Sept/Oct, I walked the full Portuguese Coastal Camino. (14 days)
It was my most amazing year. I found so much joy in all of this walking. I knew I had truly found my calling... leading others to Our Lord through walking meditation. Healing and love happens in every step.
So, why am I telling you this?
Because, I spent approximately 76 days with Our Lord. Over two months of walking across the world. In all that time, in laughter with others, in quiet prayer and in walking, our Lord kept repeating the same words to me, "Open your heart, I need you."
"Open your heart, I need you." What do you mean Lord? I thought you had my heart, I thought it was open. I pray, I do mission work, I help others, and I walk in faith. So, what do you mean, "Open your heart, I need you."
His words came on a very ordinary walking day. We were walking from Catrojeriz to Fromista. It was sunny and warm, one of the few warm weather days we had on our full Camino. We had 25 kms (16 miles) to hike. Toward the end of the day, we were walking along some canals. They were built in the 1750's, now they are used for irrigation. It was peaceful to walk along the water. Our group had separated, everyone walking at their own pace. I started to pray. As I walked step by step, I felt Our Lords presence next to me. It felt like He was walking beside me. This is when I heard Our Lord say, "open your heart, I need you.". I walked in silence and pondered those words. It was on this day, walking in the sunlight that I realized that my heart had been closed.
So, what happened? What closed my heart up tight and locked it? For me, it was my first experience of betrayal, a painful and scary time. (I know some people will say, you’re pretty lucky that it was your first) but the number matters not. It was a crushing blow to my heart. I know you can relate. All of us have been hurt by someone.
I thought I had forgiven my trespassers and I thought I was moving on. Yet, on this day, He reminded me that yes, I had forgiven but my heart was not open. My heart was not open to making new friends; my heart was afraid. I had retreated into His love. It was a good place. I needed the assurance of His love and care. I didn’t want or need to open myself to the outside world. His friendship was enough. But on this day his words were loud and clear. And maybe because of so many walking days and prayers, my little brain slowly saw the truth. My heart was not open! I was too complacent knowing I had forgiven, and once that was done, I stayed there. I concentrated on protecting my heart. I was stuck. But on that day, in that moment, I understood His simple call. OPEN YOUR HEART. He needs me. He needs me to give my heart freely. God needs me to not be afraid any more.
It's funny, Our Lord kept giving me signs along the Camino. I was hearing the same words over and over, spoken to me from strangers, "you radiate kindness and love" Wow! What? How could that be? I think the Lord was reminding me of the open hearted person I used to be. He was touching my heart with words from strangers, preparing me for His message.
I knew it was time. Time to heal and time to come back to the person formed in my mother's womb. As I walked, I chipped away at all the things that were holding me back.
You might ask, how did I do that?
I let go of pain.
I let go of pity.
I let go of trespasses and trespassers
I let go of comparing myself to others
I let go of expectations
I let go of being tough
I let go of fear
I let go and choose love again
I know we don't all have time to walk 1000 miles with God but maybe for me, it was needed. He got my attention that one warm sunny afternoon along the canals. A quiet, solitary place ... we all need that. Find yours … maybe it's at Church, at Adoration, or on a walk. Listen as you go about your day.
Chip away at your blocks. Allow the healing to take place and expect love, peace and joy to enter into your hearts.
Open your heart, let go and choose love again.
by: Daniel McFeely
“So Naaman went down and plunged into the Jordan seven times …” (2 Kings 5)
The woman was weary.
She had journeyed for many miles, herding her children like sheep, keeping them in line as they walked the streets of the city, cutting through alleys to stay out of sight.
This was not a casual evening walk. Far from it.
These children … something had to be done.
She had prayed for them. Prayed with them. Prayed over them when they slept.
Constantly she pleaded with God to watch over them … only to be frustrated when her plea’s seemingly went unanswered.
And yet, she journeyed once again.
Block after block, alley after alley, her eyes fixed on the steeple that seemed so close, but yet was far away.
It was there, under the steeple, that she would surely find the answer to her prayers.
Her children – 7 of them – were scattered around her, moving in a pack, but never orderly.
They wandered off, strayed from the path, often became distracted to the point they were nearly blind.
Their names were Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth, Wrath, Envy and Pride.
At one point in their lives, they had been known by other names. But as they grew up and grew away from their Mother, their behaviors changed.
It started with just a little bit of temptation. Wandering eyes, insatiable appetites, jealousy and anger. But left to fend for themselves, each child began to lose their humanity … slowly, but surely becoming something God never intended.
Eventually, Mother found a way to reach out to all seven. With much patience and forgiveness, she hugged them and brought them back into her life. Some came quickly, others hesitated. At least one came kicking and screaming.
And so they walked that day … step by step, block after block.
Finally reaching the steeple, they entered.
One by one, each was welcomed, forgiven.
Not once, but many times.
Then they were sent on their way.
They had been bathed in the waters of a forgiving God.
Transforming waters … capable of so much, if only all were so willing.
Lust left that day with a new name: Chastity.
Gluttony became Temperance.
Greed became Charity.
Sloth became Diligence.
Wrath became Patience.
Envy became Kindness.
And Pride became Humility.
Seven children … seven sinful behaviors … bathed seven times.
Mother was pleased.
© A Catholic Moment 2015
Prayerful Path/Mary Maddox
Saint James, pray for us that we may be willing to leave everything to follow Jesus as you did. Help us to become special friends of Jesus as you were. Amen